Tuesday, April 21, 2009

My Poems

Emotional Reaction at Electromagnetic Velocity

She was sparking with electrical excitement
Inducing my own strong magnetic incitement
Transcending every force with a shared curiosity
Moving with phenomenal electromagnetic velocity
Emitting innocence in her spectrum of heated attractions
Oscillating wildness transverse her transmitted infractions
Energetic waves propagating her visible satisfactions
Frequency vibrations visibly reflecting her reactions
Words unable to explain this wave of insanity
Theory can merely model our coupled vanity
Exotic encounters shifted and twisted awry
Moving perpendicular before an explosive cry
She was propagating sincerity deep from her eyes
With a waving intensity reflecting my new highs
Emitting light in a short period of shocking surprise
With scorching pain oscillating from her goodbyes

 Living life like a roll of the dice

I see a girl with a smile bright as a night sky flare
She hides a frown from worries and full of despair
I see a girl with eyes of joy that puts me to ease
She hides a girl shedding tears that fill the seas
I see a girl who is fearless and full of cheer
She hides a weakened girl who lives in fear
I see a girl full of life with joy in endless supply
She hides a girl full of pain who wants to cry
I see a girl with a laugh that's contagious
She hides screaming from pain outrageous
I see a girl who is extraordinary nice
She hides a girl carrying a heavy vice

Living Permutated


We lived permutated in every way
Revolution of the earth made our day
A revolution will ware down the land
Letting us cut paths though the sand

Our shared time always well spent
Revolution of time came and went
Revolutions repeated four years
Sharing lives of hopes and fears

Shared trips around the sun
Revolution engaged in much fun
Revolution of the earth sharing life
Showing affection sharp as a knife

Energy source for experiences had
Melancholy is a pleasure of being sad
It takes cloudy skies before the rain
Nature and growth did cause us pain

Sharing time's pleasure even a tear
Revolution around the sun took a year
Revolution times four around the sun
Sharing a journey that's finally done


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We lived permutated in every way
Revolution of the earth made our day
A revolution will ware down the land
Letting us cut paths though the sand

Our shared time always well spent
Revolution of time came and went
Revolutions repeated four years
Sharing lives of hopes and fears

Shared trips around the sun
Revolution engaged in much fun
Revolution of the earth sharing life
Showing affection sharp as a knife

Energy source for experiences had
Melancholy is a pleasure of being sad
It takes cloudy skies before the rain
Nature and growth did cause us pain

Sharing time's pleasure, even a tear
Revolution of the sun made our year
Revolution times four around the sun
Sharing a journey that's finally done

 Electromagnetic Velocity

Sparking with electrical excitement
Inducing a strong magnetic incitement
Transcending force, a shared curiosity
A phenomenal electromagnetic velocity
Emitting a spectrum of attractions
Oscillating transmitted infractions
Energetic waves propagating satisfactions
Frequencies traveling in vibrating reactions
Words unable to explain this wave of insanity
Theory can merely model this coupled vanity

 A Paradox of Positive Expectations

An edge is a risk with a positive expectation
And gambles vary with a standard deviation
When attempting sure betting given the edge
A betting decision carries risk of loss pledge
Risk adverse bets accompany sure gain
Edge bet chances a loss that causes pain
Risk seeking bets favor against sure loss
As preference to chance trumps real costs
Investment comes with risks immeasurable
Gambling is uncertainty easily measurable
Risk seeking deals offer improbable gains
An unlikely loss causes risk adverse pains
Risk of positive expectation can carry hostility
At revelations from impossibility to possibility
Or crossing at the possibility to certainty scale
Positive expectations yet risk probabilities fail

 Randomness of Life Create Delusions of Morality and Ethics

Random encouragement attains moral maturity in life's game
Yet delusion suggests morality creates praise and blame
Random influences creates a delusion with every virtue or vice
Yet hail virtuous and fault vicious to justify culturally nice
Random acts influence culture growth of morality to unfold
Yet respective virtue and vice is environmentally controlled
Random living creates a outlook of cultured ethical relevance
Yet ethics of emotional morality ends with delusional irrelevance
Randomness demands control to develop a cultural environment
Yet ethics praises virtue or blames vicious cultural development
Randomness of influencing delusions reflect virtue or vice
Yet relations begin of chance with a self-interest price

The Random Path of Life

The random path of life is a trail from birth to death
Each path is different but generally the same breath
The unique path one takes reflects a lifetime journey
No lifetime path reflects the same but shadows ferny
Not even the one shall pass this way again anytime
As the path chosen reflects the meaning of a lifetime 

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Each path is different but generally the same breath
The unique path one takes reflects a lifetime journey
No lifetime path reflects the same but shadows ferny
Not even the one shall pass this way again anytime
As the path chosen reflects the meaning of a lifetime

Master Control

Freedom is simply allowing all your desires to cease
Only your will harms yet judgment disturbs your peace
Desire outside your power to reach a state of anxiety
Secure freedom lost to desire by losing impropriety
Desire anything to be disappointed by what you seek
Attachment agonizes as it is taken when you are weak
Decisions of will is the cause of action not the pain
Grieve not to seek but rejoice in the things you gain
Be invincible of event disturbances beyond your will
Opinions of the action dictates the way that you deal
Harm is beyond will where happiness is from you alone
Master will to be free of desire of that not your own

 Friendship Must Endure Emotions

A swing in emotions can bring a friend to tears
The sting of emotions transfers a friend’s fears
The greater the friendship the harder it is to let go
One friend’s emotions can be another friend’s woe
A friend lied to and cheated on is not abandoned to cry all alone
Friendship endures so a friend becomes more beautifully grown
As emptiness, betrayal and lost happiness felt becomes a strain
Friends realize the friendship they have or it will never be again
The broken heart of a friend can cause another to fall apart too
When a friend hurts it can causes the other to feel just as blue
Empty soul and teary eyes dreary watching the clock dial
Friends feel a sense of relief whenever they are in denial
Seeing the hurt and pain of a friend trying to appear spared
But friendship with a million tears cried are sometimes shared
The best of times in life are shared memories of a friend
The memories made with a friend will last till the very end

A Friend

A friend feels the pain and wonders how one could cause it all
A friend shares your hurt and follows you to the Wailing Wall
A friend helps another only to struggle to do the mothering
A friend may just feel the push away from all the smothering
A friend finds it hard to say goodbye after many good years
A friend who helps but may not be able to keep away tears
A friend can easily be disliked for all the things they are not
A friend can be just as liked for all the things they are taught

 Friends In Flight with Strangers

a short flight of shared conversation is had
a memory's pleasure can be so happy yet sad
a shared experience is memory each will own
a memory better than again flying home alone
a shared moment of memory like a secret need
a surface emotion stretches breathless indeed
a memory candlelight strange on shadowy faces
a fond time recalled in minutes at hour paces
a shared time together jetting away further
a place in flight linked one seat to another

 Moonlight Gaze

your eyes wide and soul tight
with a wolf in the moonlight
features flowing of a flower
air of peace within your power
lying in snow weighed by a ton
under a tree by a frozen pond
your eyes wide and body tight
with a wolf under the moonlight
features flowing in full power
air of peace within your flower
laying in the hay sharing in fun
with that wolf licking your bun

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A wolf howling in the moonlight
Your eyes wide and soul tight
Features gleaming like a flower
Air of peace within your power
Cozy viewing the stars beyond
Under a tree by a frozen pond

 Tantalizing Shadows

Tantalizing shadows harmonize in the sunset lighting
Sparkling droplets gleaming from asunder sighting
Glowing faces formed in the shadows of a sunset sky
Heartthrob enchanting clouds descend twilight high
Tantalizing shadows driven from the heat of passion
Birds in song with animals crying in harmonic fashion
All conspicuous but nothing spoken as shadows close
Embracing gently touching in passion felt in the toes
Tantalizing shadows dancing in emotional eyes
 Intimate emotions of soul daunting shadows arise
Embracing passion from this seductive history
Dusk engulfs passion diminishing with mystery
Tantalizing shadows of unity cumulate nimble
Shadows sway the earth beneath to even tremble
Erupting volcanoes glowing red in a darkened sky
Eclipses surrounding nature kindle mountain high
Tantalizing shadows radiantly glow in the night
Nature soars to a twilight dance of a firefly light
Alluring eclipses neighboring together into one
Gentle passion overwhelms emotion on the run

 How

How careful was my path in nature which led me to play
How careful was my wink when my eyes saw best to stay
How can my thoughts remain unlike the desires of life
How can nature brand me when Cupid suggests strife
How can woman's face of nature not stir a man's fire
How can beautiful creatures not increase this desire
How against nature can desire be absent in spring
How against my spirit is the meaning of that ring
How against my mind can I restrain a lustful heart
How against my creature lust can desire just part
How expensive is my desire that leads into shame
How expensive to my spirit can haste be to blame
How expensive to my comfort what riddles despair
How expensive to justify a call of life so unfair
How unlike desire missing has my absence been
How unlike nature can my natural conscience sin
How unlike love does my desire lead toward hate
How unlike petty nuance can liberty halt my fate
How in the chronicles of life was my desire wasted time
How in the love for passion can my lust become a crime

 The Gambler

My Lady Luck you can’t hide
Expect to stand by my side
An explanation ever so polite
Expect to lose as I win in spite
High rollers will come to play
Expect your money to go away
Where the games are for keep
Expect to read them and weep
When the big game is begun
Expect to see the Vegas Gun

 Death Rider

In came death looking for a rider
I strolled over and sit down beside her
In turn she bit me like a black widow spider
I responded like song to music in tune to bite her

 Mississippi Tease

I am a Mississippi tease
Doing what I please
Down in New Orleans

I am a Mississippi flirt
Chasing after every skirt
Down in New Orleans

I am a Mississippi man
Gambling beneath a fan
Down in New Orleans 

I am a Mississippi cheat
With my shoes on my feet
Down in New Orleans

 Share a poem drinking Jeroboam

Let me share a drinking poem
The words you probably know'em
Like wild oats you’ll sow'em
After we’re drinking jeroboam
Let me share with you a poem
In a short time you’ll know'em
Like wild oats I can sow'em
While we're drinking jeroboam

 Dark Choclate 

Dark Chocolate, the song I sing
Dark Chocolate for my Queen
Dark chocolate so semi-sweet,
Dark chocolate for your treat.
Dark chocolate just can't lose,
Dark chocolate, you’d choose.
Dark Chocolate, a taste tonight
Dark Chocolate is your delight

 Merry Christmas

I wish you a Merry Christmas from my heart
To feel your presence like a jubilation dart
I would walk wildly through wicked winter wind
To feel that warmth of a smile from my friend
I wish to dream of but one passion of the past
To feel your influence via that hug shared last
I wish to light candles celebrating holidays near
To feel a wintry warm when dark eyes appear

 The Killing of bin Laden

For peace soldiers are advancing
The Lord eye was surely glancing
American’s hail to those killed
Found without the virgin shield
Aimed and the steel is thrust
Bin Laden made to bite the dust
Night flying into the battle
Shot an eye in death's rattle
To give this war a fierce rally
The helicopter used as a galley
The grim fierce feud in a hurry
Thrown away at sea in a flurry

 Farewell

Well you are moving and going away
Farewell to you in the very best way
Time spent with you came with pay
And yet improved my life every day
Time without me allowed you to work harder
Life without me may have made you smarter
But the quietness that surrounds you all alone
Carry memories of merely being on the phone
I will remember what you're really like
Long after your absence from my site
I know you have to transfer to a new desk
Farewell my friend I wish you the best

 Retiring

So you are retiring and going away
Farewell to you in the very best way
Well beyond your absence from my site
You will be remembered as very bright

 Experience Shared

Sharing an experience, a memory two can own
Similar thoughts trump memories, made alone
Moments of shared memories fill a secret need
And sharing emotions seems breathless indeed

Broken Arrow

Bothered
Trampled down
Suffering heart
Vanished vain vision
Heart loathing the part
Doomed to the grim realities
Sterner desires and darker hopes
Through the valleys a reckless course
Exhausted with a sense of sadness
Tears from useless passion
Not a glimmer of promise
Golden dreams perished
An uninspired ending
Ready to despair
A lack of hope
Suffering

 I'm sorry

I’m sorry is rather hard to say
When things can get in the way
I never meant to cause you grief
But surely mean a sense of relief
I’m sorry to cause a time of disdain
And even becoming a nagging pain
Rueful words they proved to be
Within my soul I sense your plea
I’m sorry to hurt and must atone
It is time to act or regret alone
With these words in your respect
I acknowledge it was so incorrect

 Nature’s Apology

Asking your forgiveness for considering myself only
Sharing my time with you will never leave me lonely
Consulting using my reason rather than an inclination
Sharing a friendship rather than nature’s frustration
Changing remarkably from nature to a civil adult
Befriending by conduct over an instinctive result
Acting with a morality that my prior deeds lacked
Voicing a duty over letting physical impulses react
Keeping your presence is a gift that is ever so great
Stimulating time with you is a life’s developed fate
Sharing our ideas with feelings conferring dignity
Lifting my heart and soul from my grave indignity
Being with you is where my happy moments began
Sharing time as an intelligent being to be your man

 His Reflection

His barren skills reflect increasing knowledge as a given must
Friendship reflects a lifetime of showing openness builds trust
His perfection reflects that experience of aging time with you
Sincerity reflects openness deep in his heart found in very few
His communications use words reflecting known reservations
Experience from within himself reflect any known limitations
His fear or courage reflects sharing defensiveness or openness
Confusion or clarity reflects his illusion of a wanted closeness
His persuasive demonstration reflects thoughts from his youth
Awareness reflects his acceptance of even sharing every truth
His limitations reflect the shortcomings missing in his insight
Love from his heart reflects brightly through any pitiless light

 Twenty-fifth Anniversary

25 years we have shared a lasting peace
With years of pleasure on the increase
As a river deepens with its water flow
Did our love channel from head to toe
The river deepens and grows so strong
25 years of our growth is not that long
With your feelings deep from the heart
Giving our children a very strong start
A wonderful woman sharing my life
My house a home because of my wife

25 years building our lasting light
Each year providing greater delight
With our affection in strong release
Comes a joy that brings about peace
And my thoughts reminds me of who
25 years were lucky to share with you
Rives grows deeper like our passion
Together we share a unique fashion
Sharing time on earth with a friend
Stronger together at the rivers end

 Knowing Our Past

I know where we have been
Even when we will love again
I lie here just thinking of you
Knowing everything and all we do
My love is away in beauty's bloom
As she plays cards to other’s doom
The turf of her table shall roses rear
As her love lets them return every year
Walking past a blue gushing stream
Deep in thought like many a dream
A lingering pause to lightly tread
As her step disturbs the river bed

 Beautiful Departure

Give’em a kiss at the end of your stay
Leave’em a smiley face on your way
Your touch gives more than words can say
Thoughts of you makes continuous replay
Give’em special time even as you depart
Let’em sense your soul touch their heart
Your heart and soul holds on to their mind
Thoughts of you makes the world seem kind

Special are the Times that End with a Kiss

If you will kiss me to end your stay
My smile will see you on your way
A touch is more than words can say
Thoughts of you in continuous replay
Special is our time before you depart
I sense your soul even touch my heart
To share our time is a world so kind
Your heart and soul holds my mind

 A rose of passion for your love

I offer a red rose with a whisper of passion
Then give you a kiss in a romantic fashion
As the red rose calls out for all of your love
You blow me kisses on the wings of a dove
With the red rose even flush on its petal tips
And my kiss deep from desire upon your lips

 A Friendship of a Princess

A Friendship of a Princess glows warm as heat and light from a fire
From first sight her eyes will affect you with a lifetime of desire
The miracle of her smile stirs so intensely your own begins to start
That moment in time, an impression for eternity, seals in your heart
The sweetest sensitivity she shares, every moment a chronicle of time
When her indescribable passion stirs, the clocks around begin to chime
A Princess sweetness reflects in nature like a reflection from a spring
The presence of her spirit attracts me near her and bells begin to ring
A glance from a Princess makes your thoughts dance throughout the night
The presence of a Princess stirs a man’s inner desire to become a knight
A vision of beautiful Princess is a reflection you carry like a souvenir
A Friendship of a Princess is a priceless gift that stirs a man to tear

Princess Arrives

 Whenever some Princess is advancing
 A man's eyes cannot help but glancing
 She understands every man's notions
 It's as if she carries the magic potions
 Words of a Princess, man shall obey
 For every knight lives to hail her day
 Man would storm the wildest tempest
To share a beautiful Princess’ conquest

Princess Eyes

A Princess has those beautiful dark eyes
Forever in memories as a bloom of youth
Who shares some time to combine ones lives
To become an unchanging and certain truth

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My Princess with those beautiful dark eyes
Forever in my memory as a bloom of youth
We shared our time and combined our lives
To become my unchanging and certain truth

Princess Beauty

There is a Princess so bright
A pretty woman from birth
With locks lovely and long
Glorious Princess of might
A lovely creature on earth
And body and face belong

Princess Soul seeks to calm desire

A Princess soul senses that it is going from whence she came
She and her knight return to a path with that goal their aim
The good against the evil drives what she will seek or avoid
She and her knight travel a road that she thoroughly enjoyed
Deep within a Princess' soul is calmness to violence she fears
She and her knight repeat a walk in time that every step nears
That reason distinguishes from undesirable to one she aspires
She and her knight together tame her madness of mixed desires

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 A Princess senses in her soul a need to return from where she came
 She and her knight walk this trail together with this goal her aim
 Lost love drives a depression from thoughts she will seek to avoid
 She will travel a road with her knight she once thoroughly enjoyed
 Deep within a Princess' soul lies a calmness to a future she fears
 With a knight’s protection, she transcends time as each step cures
 As life distinguishes from undesirable to live the one she aspires
 She has a knight to help her tame the madness of her mixed desires

Princess Memories

She becomes a Princess pretty and wise
With a charming smile and beautiful eyes
She fills your heart so you’re never alone
Life becomes a dream where you belong
Cherished memories from times so few
From thoughts so sweet shared with you
Times will fly whenever you’re together
Memories are thoughts that last forever
There goes a Princess in the darkness of night
A glance will light a fire in you forever bright

Princess's Knight

Living in the moment for you to say hello
Loving you is my emotionally obvious show
Reflecting sunlight beaming from your hair
Loving you for a lifetime is the brighter flare
Mesmerizing my eyes for I can't turn away
Loving you consumes a knight's perfect day 
Seeing you happy makes me feel in control
Loving you is the life of this heart and soul
Attracting me so helplessly into your groove
Loving you is to flow with the way you move

Invitation in Hopes to Toast to Cheers

Will she want to accept or want to cry?
Will she excitedly wait or wonder why?
Will she share a drink or want a round?
Will she start to chat or make a sound?
Will she cry a tear yet not complain?
Will she need tears to reveal her pain?
Will she talk to me like I'm a knight?
Will she share a drink to my delight?
Will she cry a long night of tears?
Will she enjoy so to seek souvenirs?
Will she make her way on in to town?
Will she seek a toast or see a clown?
Will she accept fondly or want to cry?
Will she hope to forget or remember why?
Will she smile or be subject to fears?
Will she really want to toast to cheers

 Find Time for Each Other

Could you find time to do things my way
Would you compare me to an eight hour day
Could you hold me like you have before
Would your lips touch mine for ever more

Could I find time to do things your way
Would I compare you to an eight hour day
Could I hold you upon entering the door
Would my lips touch yours for ever more

 Fantasies bring on a Wild Sensation

Thoughts of beautiful friendships arise
A gorgeous girl is my pleasant surprise
Dreaming of the time you kissed my lips
When we danced and I watched those hips
The dream fills a wild heart’s desire
Thoughts of you make my passions fire
Sensational beauty deep in those eyes
Fantasies felt where my heart resides
Whether I dream or gleam into your eyes
Exciting emotions come with butterflies
Dreams where our lips passionately meet
Fantasies makes this heart skips a beat
Dreams of a secret pleasure are thoughts whole
Fantasies so beautiful reflect deep in my soul
Thoughts whisper with words that seem to rhyme
Fantasies of wild sensation, in instant's time

 Dining Fantasies of Wild Sensation

Dining thoughts with a true love arise
A gorgeous girl and pleasant surprise
Sensational beauty deep in those eyes
Dining fantasies from thought resides
Day dreams wild from my dining desire
Dining dreams come like passions fire
To sit across and gleam into your eyes
Will excite my emotions with butterflies

Face eyes and smile of beauty

Your eyes hypnotize my mind with dreams about you
Your kindness captures my heart to love you so true
Your soul moves me to shower you with roses so sly
Your beauty blushes them red whenever you pass by 
Your presence becomes my very reason for existing 
Your smile anchors me like a ship to prevent any listing 
Your face moves me to confession to admit my devotion
Your arms caress with closeness giving waves of emotion

 Gorgeous Girl

 Mesmerized by your beautiful face
With a wish to cuddle and embrace
Eyes and lips within a facial feature
A beautiful and gorgeous creature
Your presence attracts these eyes
Your face attracts like pristine skies
Your face glows as the sunlight sings
Your body is worthy of angle wings
 I dream of memories shared together
I long for you presence now and forever
I look into your face with a dazzling glow
I see an illustration of mystery I do know


Marriage

Marriage begins during your wedding
A future promise of where your heading
While you are walking down that aisle
Glance into the faces wearing a smile
Now there are two, a husband and a wife
It’s your team that you are setting for life
Now every road contains some turnings
And there will be bumps and yearnings
Together a strong marriage passes every test
The miracle is all the time we spent together
For the shared time made memories forever
Over my lifetime of years I have learned
A certain trust follows living honest and wise
Repeated errors can tear a foundation apart
Be forever present in someone's mind and heart
Time shared with them touches your life forever
All the years shared gives this much for certain
Memories to fill your heart until the final curtain
Dreams will flow from everyday of your life
If you act as though you love to be my wife
Dwelling deep into a mind of a lover’s highs
Dreams reflected even as my mistress’ cries
Viewing her soul looking deep into her eyes
Dreams entertain with her thoughts so wise
I am so happy to step through time
Knowing you share this life of mine
Yet wishing you were everywhere I go
Giving me the greatest happiness
I know Days passed and then came the years
Sharing in a life's hopes and fears
Actively engaged not just looking on
Sharing the time of my life by phone
Everything you need you posses within
I'm living the dream since life begin


Unconditional love is

A higher nature
A journey of life
A limitless being
A boundless love
A heart that cares
A love that shares
A limitless affection
A beautiful friendship
A love without question
A freedom beyond limits
A natural peace within emotion
A thought with limitless feelings
A source exciting the core being
A permutation to the source of life
A feeling of unconscious awareness
A source of energy to experience love


I am Comfort at your side

I am there to help through the strain
During your time full of hurt and pain
I can be your comfort when you’re sad
In your world to be your launching pad
I want to comfort you though your tears
During your time of troublesome fears
I want to help you through your fight
In your world to be your virtuous knight
I am there to help you to be strong
During your time when things gone wrong
I can be a comfort to that person inside
In your world to be there by your side

Broken Heart

Your love became a lie
The hurt made you cry
Remove him from thought
He leaves you with naught
But your thoughts can be smart
Many would love to be with you
But this love is no longer true
He is not the man from years ago
In time, you will be sure to know


I'm told it can't be true but that's the way it feels
In frustration as all my senses fail to convince me
I believe in my memories as the thought appeals
But for the tears in my eyes carrying another key

I'm told there will come a time that I will be let go
And doubt becomes a tale that tears into my soul
Every great doubt carries pain very lonely to know
For doubt in my mind tries to deliver a critical blow

As you sit at home think what to do
Lacking sunlight as its stem draws water
Alive by drinking from a nourishment base
Reflecting a view of the sweet taste of life
Reflecting its beauty while appearing vibrant
Yet its fading behind a hidden vision fleeting
Like the starry skies on the dawn of sun rise
A life dies slowly listening for a silent voice
Lacking life as blood burns in the heart veins
Like a wild flower before the winter's choice
Still reflecting a view of the sweet taste of life
For a time one can reflect a live human face
Shadows are unseen on the dawn of sun rise
Until a final heart  beat from its dwelling place
Reflecting a view of the dark side of life


Wedding begins a journey for three

This future promise is your heading
Marriage begins during the wedding
After you have walked down the aisle
So notice the faces are wearing a smile
Dreams of an exciting life will have begun
While you share this journey with your son
Yet there are two, a husband and a wife
It’s your team which you are setting for life
Now every road contains some turnings
And there will be bumps and yearnings
Together and strong a marriage passes every test 
But a team is necessary if you are to be at your best

Striking young woman

Striking young woman whose beauty endures
Powerless are my eyes being drawn into yours
Desiring your trust drives my mind to think wise
Wishing to become lost in your dark brown eyes
Hearing your voice pleasures like music of a song
Touching you motivates a loving desire so strong
Living comes and goes while we spend time apart
Desiring thoughts from my eyes beat in my heart
Seeing love in those dark brown eyes is my goal
Feeling your charismatic eyes penetrate my soul

 Beautiful Woman

Beautiful woman with a sparkle in your eyes
Radiating excitement wherever wonder lies
Your soul is pure as an immaculate marvel
Woman with inspiration to go the last mile
Inspiring sunshine with a beaming smile
Your soul is pure as an sinless mystery
Beautiful woman with a fashion model's size
Fascinating fire from the gaze in those eyes

Your soul is pure as a divine miracle

Woman with glowing eyes like the rising sun
Encouraging warmth with a gaze for fun
Your soul is pure as a pristine mosaic

LIKE A ROSE

To hold your hand gives excitement like energy bred
Your gorgeous presence makes every rose turn red
As those beautiful lips make a rose blush in shame
Your face glows like sunshine warming me just the same
Daydreams delight me so when your images reappear
Oh beautiful rose your voice is like music to my ear

 Extreme Beauty

 Extreme beauty in the way you look
You pleasure man even as you cook
Extreme beauty deep from your eyes
You pleasure man merely baking pies
 Beaming sounds from your voice
Sharing time is man’s favorite choice
Glowing beauty radiates your skin
You pleasure man like a mortal sin
 Glittering reflections off your face
During strolls you move with grace
Extreme beauty reflects in your heart
You pleasure man like the finest art

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 Extreme beauty in the way you look
You’d pleasure man even as you cook
Extreme beauty deep from your eyes
You’d pleasure man merely baking pies
Beaming sounds from your voice
Sharing time, man’s favorite choice
Glowing beauty radiates your skin
You’d pleasure man like a mortal sin
Glittering reflections off your face
Walking leisurely you move with grace
Extreme beauty reflects in your heart
You’d pleasure man like the finest art

 Sunbeam Sunrise

Sunbeam shadows your shapely size
Projected beauty beyond earth skies
Extreme beauty deep from those eyes
You pleasure man more than a sunrise

Sunbeam shines from your smile
Manicured nails with a fresh file
Extreme beauty in the way she looks
 She pleasures me even as she cooks

Sunbeam flashes from your soul
Styled hair like some fur-lined stole
Extreme beauty deep in her eyes
She pleasures me even baking pies

Sunbeam streams from your voice
Shared times are my favorite choice
Extreme beauty carried by her skin
She pleasures more than mortal sin

Sunbeam reflects from your face
Shared strolls walking with grace
Extreme beauty reflects in her heart
She pleasures me more than fine art

Sunbeam shadows your shapely size
Projected beauty beyond earth skies
Extreme beauty deep in her dark eyes
She pleasures me more than a sunrise

Your Presence

Your eyes hypnotize my mind with dreams about you
Your kindness captures my heart to love you so true
Your soul moves me to shower you with roses so sly
Your beauty blushes them red whenever you pass by
Your presence becomes my very reason for existing
Your smile anchors me like a ship to prevent any listing
Your face moves me to confession to admit my devotion
Your arms caress with closeness giving waves of emotion

A Mistress Misery

Arms and shoulders I desire
With a body that lights my fire
Sweet body I want to hold
Magic fingers so I am told
For her love I cry and moan
For her love I give a groan
For her love all night I wake
For her love mourning I make
Dream dwells in his mistress’ eyes
As she imagines her lover’s cries

Friendship Earned

That love and trust is a friendship earned
Hurt affects your life and reflects in your eyes
Memories are forever of days you are together
I live a life where dreams become true
Because my happiness can be seen in you
Weeping carries a broken heart
Rather than feel so lonely and blue
Left alone with tears in your eyes
Under a cloud in darkest of skies
Your growth can ease your pain
Let cloudy skies provide the rain
Don’t let a haunted past linger
But let this go finger by finger
The one you loved has gone
And you are left to be strong

Chilling Shiver Down My Spine

There came a chilling shiver down my spine
When I knew that she could never be mine
There is much that I can never think or say
Because it makes me think of her each day
There is a peace in her knowing mine is real
Words can’t describe how she made me feel
There shall never be a woman who will plan
To make herself available to an undeserving man
There is joy to grasp even in love’s jagged thorn
Enjoy the pleasure and endure the pain of scorn
There is time to travel the depths of your being
To meet our hearts would never be disagreeing
There comes a time to search for your very soul
Enjoy the walk because there is an end of a stroll
There is a time for the greatest phantom of delight
To fill this glee when she first is in your sight

Feeling like a Cut Rose in a Crystal Vase

Feeling like a cut red rose dying in a crystal vase
Lacking sunlight as the rose stem draws water
Staying alive in a temporary nourishment base
Still reflecting beauty while living like a squatter

A cut rose continues to provide a welcome greeting
Reflecting its beauty throughout its final demise
Before fading into obscurity as beauty is fleeting
Just as the starry skies upon the dawn of sun rise

Love can die slowly as listening for a silent voice
Longing for a kiss as blood burned my heart veins
Just as a wild flower before a cold winter's choice
Reflecting a hope to taste the finest champagnes

Love may began from looking into beautiful eyes
Becoming one in life can fill true lovers with joy
Time becomes memories to cherish and prise
Removing all doubts revealed by some silly ploy

ver 2
A cut red rose is dying slowly in a crystal vase
Lacking sunlight, a rose stem still draws water
Staying alive in a temporary nourishment base
Still reflecting beauty while living like a squatter

A cut rose keeps providing a welcome greeting
Reflecting beauty throughout its final demise
Until fading into obscurity as beauty is fleeting
Like the starry skies upon the dawn of sun rise

My love dies slowly listening for a silent voice
Lacking a kiss let blood burn in my heart veins
Like a wild flower before a cold winter's choice
Still reflecting promise for a sweet taste of life

My love began with a look in your eyes
You became my life and filled me with joy
We made memories to cherish and prise
Yet doubts were revealed through a ploy

It can't be love but that is the way it feels
Because all my senses fail to convince me
I believe in you and that thought appeals
But the tear in my eyes carries some key

There comes a time when you will let me go
Doubt becomes a tale that tears into my soul
Great doubt carries pain very lonely to know
Doubt in my mind may deliver a critical blow


ver 1
A red rose dies slowly in a crystal vase
Lacking sunlight as its stem draws water
Alive by drinking from a nourishment base
Reflecting a view of the sweet taste of life
For a time it will provide a welcome greeting
Reflecting its beauty while appearing vibrant
Yet its fading behind a hidden vision fleeting
Like the starry skies on the dawn of sun rise

A life dies slowly listening for a silent voice
Lacking life as blood burns in the heart veins
Like a wild flower before the winter's choice
Still reflecting a view of the sweet taste of life

For a time one can reflect a live human face
Shadows are unseen on the dawn of sun rise
Until a final heart  beat from its dwelling place
Reflecting a view of the dark side of life

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Missiles and communications

In the year of my birth, 1957, the Defense Department formed the Advanced Research Projects Agency (ARPA) to coordinate science and technology projects with military applications. In 1962 the RAND Corporation was asked to propose a means whereby command and control could be maintained after a nuclear strike. Communications networks was either centralized through a hub or decentralized with a number of hubs where switchboards served as the hubs, which was highly vulnerable to a nuclear strike. Intercontinental Ballistic Missiles made wars between Great Powers irrational because they were not winnable but twice caused a deep fear, first during the Cuban missile crisis of 1962 and then the Yom Kippur War of 1973. From 1976 to 1982, I was involved with Fleet Ballistic Missile submarines as a launcher operator supervisor onboard the USS Robert E Lee, SSBN 601 Polaris and the USS Daniel Webster, SSBN 626 Poseidon. From 1988 until 1998 I was an electrical engineer employed by TRW supporting the MX, Peacekeeper, and Minuteman ICBM weapon systems. A web of computers called ARPANET was established in 1968 with a total of four computers connected to it by phone lines, three in California and one at the University of Utah. APRA used RAND proposal of a distributed network with no central hubs but nodes that could be wiped out but other nodes still be able to deliver the signal. In 1971 Intel produced the first commercial microprocessor. In 1972 the first e-mail program was designed. In 1973 the TCP/IP protocol was designed. In 1974 the TCP/IP designers called it the Internet. In 1983 while I was an engineering student at the University of Utah, 563 computers were on the net when the University of Wisconsin developed the Domain Name System (DNS) that let any one computer find another. The geosynchronous satellites of the late 1960s made the world a global village. Overseas phone calls (OPC) numbered about a million in the 1950s and grew to 23 million by 1970. In 1980 there were 200 million OPC with other political and economic consequences, including a unified market trading a trillion dollars daily in major world currencies on average. An international communications cost collapse allowed the world’s financial market to become integrated to function full time as a seamless market. For the first time, he free market could dictate policy of a nation via the international consequences. By 1990, three hundred thousand computers were connected on the Internet. In 1992, the European nuclear research consortium, CERN, released a web browser, the World Wide Web (www) and the greatest decade of wealth creation in the history of the world began. Primvest provided $5M in venture capital to OnSat where I was employed as the Vice President of Business development, which allowed us to provide Internet connectivity to the Navajo Nations via geosynchronous satellites. I was also acting as a Director with RMWT Telecom. Costs plummeted with the overdevelopment of this time but it allowed growth where 6.3 billion overseas phone calls were being made by 2001. In March of 2000, the bubble begins to burst and by March of 2001 there was a recession in place. On September 11, 2001, there was an attack on the financial capital of the empire of wealth.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Two branches of mathematics

The Greeks had a simple number system, but it was different from the Egyptian system. Egyptians used pictures to represent numbers. Greeks used the letters of their alphabet. The Greeks got the idea for an alphabet from the Phoenicians, a seafaring people who lived around 1500 BC along the coast of Syria. The Greek number system used units of 5 and 10. The Greek alphabet had twenty-seven letters, so the first nine letters represented the digits 1 through 9; the second nine letters represented the tens, and the last nine letters represented the hundreds. The highest Greek number was 900. The Greeks did not have a zero, and since they rarely needed numbers higher than hundreds, the system worked fairly well. Even though the Greeks were logical about numbers, they were surprisingly superstitious too. Some numbers were evil, while other numbers were friendly or even sacred. Number 10 was the number of harmony. Number 8 was the symbol of death. Odd numbers were female, and even numbers were male. Two branches of mathematics resulted with separation of whole numbers and geometry. Eudoxus used geometry to define lengths, angles, areas, and volumes with irrational numbers as lengths or line segments. Converting all mathematics except the theory of whole numbers into geometry had consequences. From Euclid until 1600, geometry was the basis of all rigorous mathematics. Mathematics begins intuitive or empirical and remained so until the 4th century BC. Babylonians used numbers without any understanding of decimal approximations. BC Pythagoras of the 5th century had linked whole numbers and ratios of whole numbers as the way to study nature and insisted the whole numbers were the measure of all things until Hippasus discovered a irrational number or incommensurable ratio. Pythagoreans and the classical Greeks rejected irrational numbers. Classical Greeks believed in the theory of whole numbers with a logical foundation. Deductive mathematic attempts led Euclid to define all his concepts to provide a logical treatment of the whole numbers. Geometric representation of numbers and of operations with numbers was not practical. The deductive orderly proof of the geometry of Euclid, Apollonius, and Archimedes was merged with the indeterminate class of problems in the works of Diophantus. Classical Greek civilization combined with Egyptian and Babylonian in the period of Alexandrian Greek civilization. Various types of undefined numbers continued to be used to provide empirically correct solutions. Heron translated much of the Greek geometrical algebra into arithmetical and algebraic processes and provided a formula for the area of a triangle. Hipparchus and Ptolemy created quantitative astronomy with the creation of trigonometry. Arithmetic and algebra emerged without logical structure since it could be used provide empirical results. Diophantus introduced symbolism in algebraic operations that was entirely arithmetical with no appeal to geometry. He introduced indeterminate equations as a branch of algebra but considered equations producing irrational negative or imaginary roots as unsolvable. Heron accepted irrational quantities; Archimedes put bounds around irrational numbers. Hindus and Arab advanced arithmetic and algebra empirically. They reasoned by analogy and introduced rules for manipulating irrational numbers without providing any logical foundation favored in classical Greek mathematics. The Hindus introduced separate symbols for the numbers 1 to 9, converted from positional notation in base 60 to base 10, recognized 0 as a number, and used negative numbers. Europeans of the Renaissance acquired its knowledge of mathematics via the Arabs and Greek manuscripts. They noticed a dilemma presented by the two disparate states of arithmetic and geometry. They realized the utility of arithmetic and algebra of ancient times lacked a logical foundation. Europeans of the 16th and 17th century considered the negative numbers in Arab texts as absurd. Girard and Harriot used the minus sign to describe negative numbers. A negative number is an independent concept, not the operation of subtraction. Using separate symbols would have been better.

Logarithms, complex numbers, mathematical induction, and the binomial theorem were added to the body of algebra without proofs. Algebra became a study of general types of forms and equations when Vieta introduced literal coefficients separating arithmetic and algebra, types from numbers. By the mid-18th century, algebra included many branches.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Soul forever under contract, 666 credit score rating

For so remarkably perverse is the nature of man that he despises whoever courts him and admires whoever will not bend before him. --Thucydides As nineteenth century America traded liberty for ambition, financial circumstances evolved as categories of personal identity. Imperialism trumped freedom; capitalism made every soul a business. Failure, a language of business, was applied to the soul. Failure was made yet never born prior to capitalism. Now, more outrun failure than chase success as a low ambition offends more than a low achievement. With the Civil War failure grew to mean insolvent. Failure became a sin promoted by the idea that men who failed lacked ability and ambition. Men were always at fault for their failures even though honest dealings and hard work could fail under capitalism. Failure went from an incident to an identity. A man became nothing more than his occupation. Striving for success became a compulsory virtue and even a sacred duty within religious cultures. Perpetual ambition became self respect and self esteem, where every life was to be lived on the stretch and an easy life could never be good enough. Men publish the successes of their efforts but shy from sharing failures, a practice of concealment that causes the ruins of many a man as every success is followed by eight failures with a paper trail of common failure hidden within libraries and public archives. The basis of modern American law, economy, and society is contract theory. Contract became the framework of achieved identity in its supreme place in legal thought. Free man could make deals to advance him and nobody fails who ought not to fail. A contract was a promise to succeed, to uphold your end of a bargain. Any soul freely accepted or rejected contracts, which completely ignores the basic facts of poverty and power. Legal release from debt violates two rules of capitalism, keeping a promise and taking responsibility when a soul’s actions harm others. An entrepreneur who failed in the early nineteenth century faced inadequate laws, vengeful creditors, and forced idleness in debtor’s prison. Bankruptcy laws voided a debtor’s legal obligations, not a soul’s moral ones. During rampant failure, a contract came to signify obligation but not a promise. A moral obligation was at odds with legal and economic change, yet worth preserving. To enshrine moral obligations was to sequester it unenforceable or ordered from the court.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Bankroll vs Edge and Odds

For a positive expectation bet, you need an edge.
Edge is the amount you expect to win.

For a positive expectation bet, you need the odds.
Odds of 2 to 1 converts to 1/(2+1) fraction

Wagers of positive expectation have size limitations.
Bankroll must be a consideration for making a wager.

Kelly Formula relates 'bet to bankroll' as 'edge/odds'.
Edge/odds formula ignores the effect this wager has.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Arithmetic Mean vs. Geometric Mean

Arithmetic Mean = the sum of 'X' values divided by 'X' = Average.
Geometric Mean = the 'X' root of the product of 'X' values.

Geometric Mean < Arithmetic Mean, except when equal average values.
if Geometric Mean < Arithmetic Mean, then any risk is unfavorable

if an investor trades then zero sum game loses payments in trade
if a gambler makes a fair wager then risk makes wager unfavorable

if you wager or invest then you chose the highest Geometric Mean
if a Gemetric Mean = 0 then you can go to zero and will in time